in the unlikely event that this happens:

Girl:
Jane

Boy:
Cameron

yepp

some things should change, some should not
as much as it bothered me, he's right! YOU CAN'T FAKE REAL
why do I push God out of some parts of my life?
no no no
authenticity=truth
and I am always looking for truth!

I depart as air
and I don't look back.

I DO NOT WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE
really

things I learned during study hall

temporary confidence boosters can fix anything
sundresses make things fun
thinking is the best thing that God lets us do
18 weeks is not enough time to learn chem

SUMMER NOW PLEASE

Ever actually think about how many times per day you lie and are lied to?
why can't we just tell each other the truth?

constant state of decay

In a Soloman mood today
Why bother fighting?
We are ALL dying
From the start

"Is there anything of which one can say, "Look! This is something new"? It was here already, long ago; it was here before our time. There is no remembrance of men of old, and even those who are yet to come will not be remembered by those who follow." Ecclesiastes

Lord, Save Me From Myself

I am more than a number, I know I am!
Can I move on? Can I be fine without you?
There was nothing, there is nothing.
I'll probably do worse the second time around.

I WANT TO RIDE MY BICYCLE!
love love love

Don't I have something to be doing now?
I wish I drove to school so that I wouldn't have to waste time in stupid study hall!

ALSO: this is getting scary.
the dreams are real! and I just dream real things, like real days, real scenarios, real people.
not psychic or anything, just possible I guess, like stuff that could or will happen.

and if it didn't bother me then, it does now?
somethings just aren't possible, and I wish this wasn't one of them.
He'll be gone, and I'll be here
smooth

I hardly have dreams, and I never trust them
but lately, they've been real
like real things that could happen, and real people having real conversations
and someone's in them, and it's not creepy, I promise.
my subconcious confirms my reality? scary.
but disappointment also confirmed the worst yesterday, well maybe not the worst, but it was bad.
I wish you wouldn't have to read this, the rest is fine, but you don't need to be burdened.

"It all began with love personified"
---that's another one of my 6 word stories
!!!

"nothing will ever be enough. i was wrong. i cant even ask if i acn do anyhting because nothing can heal the wounds of broken trust. i'm taking ur advice to heart. there will never be anything that will get between me and God ever. there will also never be anything getting between you and me. these miles between us seem but afternoon stroll down the boardwalk. when i go the distance to get to you, i will not stop, or even look at the attractions along the way. no curly fries, no popcorn, not even my all time favorite: salt water taffy. i will fix my eyes on you. you alone will be my goal. God cannot be kept out of this. He made the boardwalk that i now walk upon to fulfill my goal of healing the wounds that i have made with the love of God that i have through the Holy Spirit which will flow out of me to you. you re the greatest woman i know and probally ever know. i didnt not want to hurt the greatest woman alive. will never want to hurt the greatest woman alive. i cant say enough how much i am sorry. i will repent and completely turn from this thing that has haunted my reltionships fro a while. it is people like you that i need in my life and i want to spend my life with you. this will NEVER happen again""

THIS IS CREEPY!
An INSANE 17 year old wrote this, and I feel terrible for the poor girl who got hit with this load of uncontrolled emotion all at once...people do scary things online

come on get higher
loosen my lips
faith and desire in the swing of your hips
just pull me down hard and drown me in love

YES
I am quickly compiling my list of songs I want a boy to sing to me

Blogging at school? haha, they don't block it with their "advanced" security systems.
I was looking at schools last night, and I can't wait!!! I need to get out of here. Right now I'm looking at Wheaton and Gordon and Liberty...they all look so cool! *stamps foot* Can't I go to all of them???

One downfall: price tag
$35,500
!!!
that's like the price of a small child or a new car
PER SEMESTER!!!
but wheaton looks like a serious party of christian acadmeics. YES

PS: ABOVE PICTURE IS COOL

Modest Mouse

And we'll all float on, ok.
And we'll all float on any way, well

do they have to leave? I don't know what I'll do without them! I'm no leader!
she got her freedom today in the form of a piece of plastic. and she won't even share it.

someone needs to re-read her parenting manual.
page 65 sentence 8: "Parents should take their children to all scheduled doctor/ORTHODONTIST appointments. If the parent is in a foul mood on the day of said appointment and refuses to take their child to the appointment, it should be RESCHEDULED for a day when the parent is not feeling quite so menopausal."
THERE YA GO MOM!

ps: does this even make sense to you ever?
and who are you?! only my friends read my blog. haha

You're always more interesting than I am.
I would like to visit an art gallery right now.
But I'm going to gma's now
cool

"Bring me the sunset in a cup" -Emily Dickinson
Give me the oceans bottled, but can they be contained?
Catch the light of her smile, grasp at fragments before dusk.
Show me beauty Show me grace Show me fear Show me pain.
Bring me the riches of old in the form of love

---

That was cool...the writing exercise was to take a line from a famous poem and then make the rest your own

I Miss It Today

No Lie...

New Song: Fitz and The Dizzyspells by Andrew Bird
He uses his violin for the beginning...it's sick.

haha, isn't it great how kids prefer random things over toys?! Why do we spend so much money on toys?? good times...and uncertain future plans
GREAT

mmmmmmmm two posts in one day is SO obsessive...but I love this song, so here's the lyrics:

Morning Yearning by: Ben Harper

A fingers touch upon my lips
It’s a morning yearning
It’s a morning yearning
Pull the curtains shut try to keep it dark
But the sun is burning
The sun is burning

The world awakens on the run
And we’ll soon be earning We’ll soon be earning
With hopes of better days to come
That’s a morning yearning
Morning yearning
Morning yearning…

Another day another chance to get it right
Must I still be learning?
Must I still be learning?
Baby crying kept us up all night With her morning yearning
With her morning yearning
Morning yearning…

Like a summer rose I’m a victim of the fall
But am soon returning
Soon returning
Your love’s the warmest place the sun ever shines
My morning yearning
My morning yearning
Morning yearning…

May my only fault be that I love too deeply
Drawing is fun!
It's raining today...we might have to talk to each other
family? what a strange concept